Friend-ally

We mainly have three phases in our life when we form strong friendships……the first one happens when we are in school so they become school friends then we have college friends and ultimately office friends.

Bonds formed during these three phases , if strong remain for lifetime. But I personally believe that people we meet during our college days especially if one get’s to stay in hostel are our closest…reason being……… well they have ‘lived’ with you ….seen you through good and bad…..those our people who would know us in and out.

When in school we spend some time together but not significant enough to know the actual person…..and office well again personally finding a friend in office is rare almost impossible and if you happen to find someone …well then “lucky you!!!!!!”

So recently ….out of the blues I had this sudden urge to meet/contact all my old friends …….but I have lost touch with almost all of them and I am not feeling great about it….infact I am wondering of If i ever drop them a Hi..Hello message they would be pretty much surprised/shocked.
Well firstly for starters let me tell you I am not a very friendly person on the first glance…when I say so it doesn’t mean that “I have horns on my head and would knock you dead”…..but I am not a person who would ever approach the other person first … let say I am somewhere between shy – arrogant. Nor would I make any special effort to keep in touch..make calls drop mail etc etc…but yes once I consider a person friend that is going to be for life. I would never even say that how much would the other person mean to me because I generally assume that its quite obvious…….. I am also and impulsive idiot and have a habit of blurting the first thing that comes to my mouth…and off course my famous temper….

Given a chance I would love to change these things about myself but then its kindda late and I am kindda old now…so obviously with all the attributes mentioned above, very few people have stuck with me and if I could I would have awarded them with a bravery medal

Anyways…….i think I done enough self bashing so would take a break …ciao

PS I am super bored and have nothing much to do so you can obviously imagine my state of mind…..