For the last few weeks I have not been well…..had some infection and my omnipresent throat issue….and trust me these weeks have been awful….i have lost all the wt. I managed to put on with so much of dedication……….We girls are actually weird(honestly), when I was putting on weight my only concern was to lose it……I called myself FAT every now and then…..and now when I have lost it I am worried….gals I tell you are soo confused..
So with another weekend approaching hopefully I’ll feel better…………….there is still lot of work that needs to be done.
When I was unwell…..a thought passed my mind of me being old…..i mean c’mmon I am still young but then I compared myself to what I was 15 years ago…..full of energy and happiness…..least bothered about anyone……living in my own world …..seeing it through my own eyes……had no worries…..hardly studied……barely did anything that was remotely constructive……I loved eating (I could eat half a dozen banana’s at one go) basically I took life as it came……the biggest joy for me was when I use to get a B or B+ in any subject (normally I preferred to stick to C’s and D’s) or when I use to have my brothers and sisters around me……I use to miss exams whenever I wanted…….my parents had lost all hopes with me which never bothered me(actually they never had any)……I was sooo happy then
Then came the transformation…I became responsible…..thought of being something in life….and all crap…….i wanted to score well to make my ma-pa feel happy….how wrong I was….i seriously think “ education ruined me “……..and look at me now……grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Anyways…..these are some crazy thoughts from my forever crazy mind…….so don’t mind
Sometimes when you are feeling all time low…… and suddenly something happens something small but significant…it does make you feel so much better about yourself and about life…..it tells us that time is bound to change and nothing would last forever….not the happy times and not the sad times……just keep the faith..in yourself….and in god….
Anyways…with this positive note I end this blog……have a wonderful weekend…….ciao
So with another weekend approaching hopefully I’ll feel better…………….there is still lot of work that needs to be done.
When I was unwell…..a thought passed my mind of me being old…..i mean c’mmon I am still young but then I compared myself to what I was 15 years ago…..full of energy and happiness…..least bothered about anyone……living in my own world …..seeing it through my own eyes……had no worries…..hardly studied……barely did anything that was remotely constructive……I loved eating (I could eat half a dozen banana’s at one go) basically I took life as it came……the biggest joy for me was when I use to get a B or B+ in any subject (normally I preferred to stick to C’s and D’s) or when I use to have my brothers and sisters around me……I use to miss exams whenever I wanted…….my parents had lost all hopes with me which never bothered me(actually they never had any)……I was sooo happy then
Then came the transformation…I became responsible…..thought of being something in life….and all crap…….i wanted to score well to make my ma-pa feel happy….how wrong I was….i seriously think “ education ruined me “……..and look at me now……grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Anyways…..these are some crazy thoughts from my forever crazy mind…….so don’t mind
Sometimes when you are feeling all time low…… and suddenly something happens something small but significant…it does make you feel so much better about yourself and about life…..it tells us that time is bound to change and nothing would last forever….not the happy times and not the sad times……just keep the faith..in yourself….and in god….
Anyways…with this positive note I end this blog……have a wonderful weekend…….ciao
